Thursday, October 27, 2005

I want to be more...

I think that I've transformed from busyJon to lazyJon. I don't want to be lazyJon, but I spent my mornings fighting with myself to get out of bed and I don't know where my evenings go. I have a lot of projects that I want to do, but none of them get done. I don't even go grocery shopping anymore.

I want to be more purposeful with my time. That doesn't mean that I have to be doing something every second or have every moment planned, but lie Jesus used every moment He had to either pray or minister, I want to do the same. This doesn't mean that I'm going to go preaching in the streets. I don't think God's calling me to that. It means more time on this computer writing and creating something that God will use to bless others and me in the process. I've been wanting to for a while, but I put it off until later.

My excuse is that I have to go to bed early so I can wake up early. That hasn't been working. I just sleep more. Well... I'm deciding to stay up until I'm too tired to type. Then I'll go to bed for a short amount of sleep and still try to get up early. If my body has a problem with that, it will just have to make me more tired earlier. Then maybe I'll have a normal sleep schedule. Naturally, I get tired at four and wake at noon. Everytime I have the flexability, I fall to that schedule. Should I fight or go with it? My job says I should fight.

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