So I got about an hour or so worth of walking time in today. It takes so long to clear my head and I discovered that walking past memories isn't a good idea to clear it. It just drags back old ones. Good opportunity to pray for those things I see and remember, but not for just listening to God.
I did decide that I want to try and visit family more often. Maybe do it monthly or every other month or so. I also want to plan another more remote place to sit at the feet of Jesus where there aren't bags of cans and bottles waiting to be taken to the dump and I wasn't trying to find a way to hang out with brothers and driving to San Francisco. Although that stuff is good, it wasn't what I was looking for.
But on the bright side, if I was here for longer than a couple of nights, I would make an escape to our mall, where I went for an hour or so to play with the iPad (better than I expected, but I won't be buying one any time soon.) and discovered nice comfy couches and chairs in the middle of the mall, with coffee and end tables! So if I were here longer, I would go there and bring my computer and some books and make a little office there. Free electricity (low wireless signal... probably not reliable) rest rooms aren't too far away. They have security and temperature control, good eating options, (Not like Chico Mall) and you can people watch all you like. There was even a coke machine.
We went to Bubba Gump's for dinner (at 4:30. My dad wanted to be back before dark. (actually, he wanted to be home by 7)) They told us it would take 5-15 minutes and we could wait at the bar. When we decided to sit at the bench instead, the guy told us we could go right on in. The restaurant was nearly empty. I realized it was a ploy to get us to sit at the bar and start drinking. Sneaky sneaky.
Anyway, I got up before noon, and the day still sped by me. I know this was a super short vacation, but it was good to see my parents and two of my brothers. I did come to some understandings with God. I now know that I don't have to have questions or an agenda when I come to Him. (I kinda knew this already, but it's more like sometimes, God doesn't want to talk about what I want to talk about. Sometimes, He just wants us to be. It's good to know. I like to feel productive. Just being doesn't make me feel productive, especially when I have a lot on my mind that I want to go over.) Also, if I did have to move home, I don't think it would be the end of the world. I still don't want to, but I could. I also know the theme and the theme verse for the High School Summer Camp.
So even though it was short and not as productive as I would have liked, I'm stamping the trip a success.
Setting Sun - Sun Setting in SoCal...I forget where exactly.....
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