Thursday July 8th, 2010
The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, to all who call upon Him in truth.
Father in Heaven, I believe You and call upon You. I believe that as I draw near to You, You draw near to me. I know I don’t deserve You or the gifts you bring. All the wages I deserve have already been paid by You sending Your Son to die on the cross. I am not asking for mercy since I have already received it. I am not asking for grace although You give that to me in abundance. I want Your presence in my life. I want You. I don’t want you so that others will see. I want you so that I can see Your works and I long for the day when I am perfected and can see you face to face. Is it wrong to be jealous of those who have already died in the faith? Is it wrong to want to see Your face and bow at Your feet? I love You more and more everyday. I want to walk with You here on Earth as I will one day in Heaven. Please draw near to me, Father. Have me by Your side always. I am tired of living for my desires. I’m tired of trying to do the right thing under my own power. I just want to give up to You. I know what You called me do is only possible through Your strength and I don’t want to ask for Your strength tonight. I just want You to be near me. I know I am not alone because You are with me. I know You are here because I prayed from the truth of Your Word and Your Word says that You are near when I call. Please help me to never stop calling. I love you. I want You. I need You. Will You have me? Will You keep me? This sinner that I am. How could anyone but You love me? I still don’t understand how You can love me, but You do. I don’t need to understand it to accept it. Thank You, Lord. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. Thank You for rising on the third day. Thank You for holding the universe in its place, commanding the boundaries of the oceans of the deep, and still caring enough about me to crawl inside me and dwell here. Thank You for thinking me so valuable that You would instruct me. I love when You instruct me. I love the opportunity to obey. There are many things that my body desires and I pray that You teach me to depend on You for my needs and not to chase after my wants. Please let me not grasp anything You do not wish me to have. Please help me abound in faith and quench the doubt within me. I want to be wholly Yours, my inside and outside, my top and my bottom, my left and my right. You are all in all. I am all in You, and only when I’m in You. Otherwise, I’m nothing. Please help me to stay in You and in Your will. I want to do Your Works and I want to serve You all my life. I want to sit at Your feet and walk beside You. I want to reside within the folds of Your robe. I want to bask in Your glory. It’s You who is my first true love. May I have a heart that is always soft towards You. I know that You will answer and I truly believe that I am asking in truth and in spirit. And I pray this in the name of Your Son, Jesus, whom I serve. Amen.
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