My life recently has consisted of every good thing except a goodnight's sleep. I've had great ministry opportunities and challenges as well as fruit and fellowship. I've experienced joy as well as sorrow. I've struggled with sin and have claimed my victory in Christ.
I have learned a lot about love. Stuff I already knew. Stuff I understood, but didn't have words for.
Love is a strange thing. With the love of God, we can love both a complete stranger and that special someone. Our love for the stranger isn't diminished next to the love of that special someone, but it's different.
Love for a stranger is looking at and seeing Christ in that lonely face. Seeing the Jesus that I so desire to minister to behind that flesh and that mask of eyes. Going out of your way to help someone you don't know is not only right, but joyful. It's like singing songs into the wind. No one knows what you're doing, but you know God hears.
But love for that special someone is more constant. It's giving over of your life and disciplining your body to be a slave to your will for hours on end. It's finding joy in making that someone blessed at every expense. It's knowing that my own bodily desires are even further down the list of priorities and only after every need and want of this other person is satisfied, do my own desires even dare to show themselves.
Sleep is the present reward of trust and joy is the present reward of hope. Tonight, I shall lay my head down in sweet surrender, completely believing that my God is faithful.
Setting Sun - Sun Setting in SoCal...I forget where exactly.....
11 months ago